I will spare you the details.
Today was a miserable day.
I'm not usually depressed to the point of immobility, but there are troublesome obstacles I will never overcome.
This evening, I had to get out of the house.
I crawled to the car and scratched off towards town.
Driving wildly into the darkness, I lowered the window, and shouted over the wind and oncoming traffic.
I heard myself scream, "Lord! Help me! What must I do? Help me! How can I go on? Give me a sign!"
I feel better.